back from Male

Only managed a few hours of sleep after my flight
this trip was super laid back in terms of events. Sadly i didnt get to sing grrr...
we talked about many "interesting and spooky" thing. Some issues took me off guard.
Iam gonna head out for a run... need workout and air

later fellas.

Life has been...

Great! for the pass few days back in Singapore ive managed to spent some quality time with Edda. Be it from heading out for crabs from all over the east of Singapore, to a simple loving home cooked meal of Mee Goreng (if you didn't know, Edda cooks the best Mee Goreng & Chicken Curry noodles! i crave for it every time iam over), a 5km run from home to Bedok and back, a stroll in the park after dinner with her loving family, where we would walk hand in hand silent at times just enjoying each other company... or to cycle for hours through the East coast with the wind in our hair, poking fun at each other along the way till we reach the jetty, enjoying the rhythmical sea breeze, watching the amber in the sky retire from a long days work, embracing each other as we look out into the endless sea ahead... feeling complete.

All these could have been done alone, infact HAVE been done alone. Enjoyable, Satisfying, Relaxing yes no doubt about it but its totally different with you have the element of love in the things that you do. Its been a month since Edda and I got together and our friendship is close to knocking on to the door of a year now. Iam never bored of her presence, every day that we meet i would eagerly anticipate. Everytime when i send her off for work, watching her walk through the departure gates of the airport my heart sinks by a little.

a thought on love...

There is a saying "to love is not a feeling, it is an ability" my love for her through thick and thin since we met a year ago has not died out a single bit and never will, cause we choose to love despite the downs in our then friendship and in the present relationship, the arguments we have issues which we dont see eye to eye with. By coming to common consensus with these "down times" and still moving on as a couple it makes us stronger. Have you seen how a sword is forged? through heat and constant punishment of the falling mallet onto the anvil pounding the blade, yes there would be sparks scattered all over pain in his arms and sweat stinging his eye, but the blacksmith never gives up till the sword is forged. Solid steel, shining as light reflects of its body a firm grip, a master piece the product of his undying love and passion for what he does alone and out of sight in his workshop.

When was the last time you have chosen to use that ability of love? to over look all the arguments and pain in your relationship like how the blacksmith endures the pain and loneliness working day and night on his blade, and you on you relationship. Have faith in God and your loved ones, allowing Him to guide you as you bring you hammer down. Forging you blade with perseverance, patience and love. A fruitful relationship awaits you then at the end, priceless and attractive, people will be marveled in awe. A relationship which defies time and space even till the end of your days.

Dry pictures of Male 20-9-05

Just when i was about to give up hope on ever getting a Male flight, i got one rostered for the month of June and thats just the start, few days back i was called up for a standby flight and guess what? haha a Male flight! iam like "DUz?" whats with not getting any Male flights at all and when i get do get one, the rest come rushing in!

The flight time was approximately 4hours and 10Mins. By the time we got there it was about the stroke of midnight. Throughout the entire flight the crew were all talking bout the "ghostly events" that take place in one of the rooms which we would be staying... its FREAKY and let me assure you everyone that heard the story (iam sure all flying crew would know) instantly had goosebumps and their hair on their hands and neck at attention ready to jump out of the pores! We took a boat over to the island (Bandos) and waited eagery for our room keys... "Mr. Adrian Goh room 326" Phew a sign of relief but still its was beside the "other ROOM"... my fellow colleague Azmi got 328... he was so affected about it he didn't sleep for the entire night! We went back, dumped out bags changed out and everyone went to the bar for a round of drinks, after which we called it a night. Trust me even after downing a large one i still had issues sleeping.

The following day it was time for the sun sand and sea! The sun was a blazing inferno and the seas crystal clear, once you step foot onto the fine and warm dunes of the beach you know you are in for something great! Snorkeling here we come!

k i just randomy threw the pics around. theres more tagged on my FB http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=799534127&ref=profile#/album.php?aid=81364&id=525254684&ref=mf. Chao... off to Taipei tomorrow. Anyone need anything?

a date with "Loneliness"

Time seemed to have slowed down these past 7 days, i feel like iam locked away in another dimension, in a place where the fingers of the watch ticks 1/2 a second slower, the digital timer on the face of my notebook freezes still and iam constantly looking for something to do - something to keep me occupied, to kill time, to sink deep into, storybooks, computer games, flicking through the TV channels... subconsciously the next thing i find myself doing, is to look at the face of the watch once again... "tick... tock... tick... tock..."

Lovely pictures of her occupy every single possible item i own. From my Nokia mobile phone to the Acer laptop to a slot in the Gucci wallet.... and that includes the deepest darkest reaches of my mind. Its strange how the human body reacts to the missing presence of a loved one after a certain amount of time spent apart. It feels like a part of you is missing, a familiar face, that unique and gentle voice, that sweet scent and that warm and loving touch - her presence.

Unusual emotions fill you, frustration, the lack of patience, gloominess... they seem to find a way into your mind creeping pass your defences without detection... consuming you. Then you snap! unintentionally you just barked a nasty remark or gave someone that chilly stare cause he or she was curious whats wrong with you and thats how you send him off... you regret your actions.

A little bit of these feeling and emotions have revolved around my life for these pass 7Days and iam not proud of it. Suppressing the inner daemon of lonelyness seems harder when ones away from the one he / she loves.

Here are some Signs of Loneliness

FYI: Iam not saying these points stated below have happened to be in the pass 7Days, they are but just a few examples ive managed to find out from the web ( The Robert Gordon University, Schoolhill, Aberdeen, AB10 1FR, Scotland, UK: a Scottish charity, registration No. SCO13781). I would like to highlight some of the more common signs.

No interest in activities or other people
Preoccupation with yourself
Being self critical
Criticising others
Being dissatisfied with all relationships, friends or family
Inability to form and maintain relationships
Feeling your needs are not being met and there is no way they will be
Overreacting to everyday events that you would usually deal with
Feeling separate, self-pitying, sad, nervous and disorientated
Negative attitudes
Feeling lethargic
Feeling helpless, worthless, unacceptable, powerless and self-absorbed
Low self-esteem and feelings of emptiness

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Iam sure at least one of these signs have occurred to each and every single one of us. As the saying goes "Its human to feel this way". Ordinary people like you and I are bound to stumble upon such problems in life, the only questions is "How do you overcome it"?

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How to manage Loneliness and Homesickness

Consider coming to speak to a counsellor who will help you explore what is going on and help you find your way through it
Try and be realistic about what others may be able to do for you and don’t ask too much of them in case it just frightens them away. This will help to avoid disappointment and frustration
Take time to ask yourself how you feel. Don’t mistake loneliness for depression in case this makes things worse
Understand that loneliness and being alone are not the same. Being alone is healthy and necessary as most of us need our space at some time or other. Thinking, reading and reflecting on life are often best done alone
Loneliness and homesickness do not need to take your life over. It can help to sort out what is going on so that you can work on it and improve your situation
Take time to choose the people you want to spend time with. Many lonely or homesick people look for friendships in the wrong places whether or not they have anything in common, which can be disappointing when it doesn’t work out
Reading self help books can help identify any ways you maybe acting which interfere with making satisfying friendships
Sometimes lonely people feel that it is not ok to have any conflict in their relationships or that they are going wrong if there is conflict. In fact conflict can be healthy and strengthen a relationship
Some friendships/relationships just don’t work so it is helpful to recognise that rather than blame yourself or others
Considering other peoples’ feelings can help build friendships
Practise meeting and talking to one new person each week to reduce your homesickness and loneliness. Let people other than family or friends from home fill the gaps in your life.

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So cheer up! whoever you are that is currently in such a state. I'd leave you with this phrase i picked up while i was serving my National Service in the Army: "Tough times don't last, Tough man do"!

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PS* Edda if you are reading this, i want you to know how sorry Iam for my actions, for the little ups and downs we have faced in the past few days. Looking @ you through a web cam is like waiting for the layers to defrost around that mouth watering candy which is frozen within the block of solid ice( i wish it was as easy as chewing to the core of the chocs i got you haha)... umm what am i saying ANYWAY, i cant wait to catch up with you in 2 days time Sweetheart! Iam missing you so much. Oh baby and how much do i owe the "cow bank" anyway?

984 mini outing!~

On the 5/5/09 something was brewing! It started with Edda, Noraini and Me having this strange craving for crabs! somehow an idea struck us, "how bout we try invite more people!?" cause the previous occasion when the 3 of us dined in we could not even finish 1/2 of what we ordered... well and so the sms-es went out to many Benny Zann Ath Jo Mich Fay etc... iam glad most of you guys turned up!

dum di dum di dum~

chilly crabs!

Butter Crabs~

so the guys wanted to snap couple pictures haha now it seems like this dinner is somekinda match making event for singles out there!

We ended the day with this lovely picture and a round of drinks @ Eddas place. Ah it was great to meet up with you guys! we should organise more Batch 984 outings fellas! when are we going back to KTV for more duet duels? haha cant wait!

how to survive 2 days with 17NZ?

SIMPLE! get 5 guys, throw in 17NZ each so thats 17 x 5 = 85Nz head down to the nearest Foodtown and shop for "drystores" ull actually be able to shop for loads of stuff and i really mean loads of food! This trip, the crew have got the privilege of cooking in our rooms! yes cause the new hotel has got cooking facilities (wish they had free net connection too grr...) Dave and I were the 2 cooking k! Gosh i hade to slice and dice the onions and garlic the stench stayed on my fingers for like 2 days! girls these days, cant cook or do the house work *tsk tsk* haha! just pulling your legs ladies! Steph and Sri dont take it out on me when we meet k? hahaha but if you are that "special" one then oh well... its gen-X and girls = guys = fair so hey dont get offended. So heres the pics of whats was cooking! believe it!

bags and bags of food!


somehow i managed to smile while chopping onions

The "before" product

and the "After" !

Dig in!

End of my "tourism" course!

For the past 2 days ive been attending this course with a group of colleagues ive never met before! The initial though of this course was like a total waste of time, thats where i was wrong. This short 2 days have broadened my knowledge on our countries history fiction and facts, you would be surprised to find out really interesting stuff like how many birds are there in the bird park, what does each dollar note mean and represent, history behind many attractions in Singapore etc. Made a few new friends along the way too! sadly 1 of them was not feeling well on the 2nd day and so we missed her out in the group picture.

from left: Charmaine, Jacqueline, "Me", Felicity and Peggy

Recently Ive got news from Vincent's babe that shees got the entire Sims2 expansion pack and shees gonna lend em to me! woohoo its fun time i cant remember when was the last occasion i created a sims character of myself, working my way up the corporate ladder, getting hitched, married, kids! cant wait! its gonna be fun!